I think basically I started to not give a fuck about anything was when I got out of college. I was in a horrible relationship, that in the end made me out to look like the bad guy ( I wasn't, but she turned everyone's opinion on me).

Anyway, I decided I had to relocate and find out who I am. Turns out, I am a guy who doesn't give a fuck about anything, an open book, and a straight up scumbag (in a good way).

I used to care too much about other people’s opinions of what I do.

I used to care too much about what people think about what I do.

I used to care too much about how others judge what I do, or who I am, and that’s when my happiness was vulnerable at the time.

There’s no need for you to worry about what people think of you. That’s a waste of energy.

I’ve wanted this piece of writing to be about us and how sorry I am. I’ve wanted to convince you how much I understand you but today – no, in fact, after weeks of working out, spending time at the gym, basically tiring myself out so that I don’t think too much – I don’t give a fuck anymore about what you think of me.

Yes, I’m writing this for me.

I’m not sorry anymore for the things I’ve said. I’m not sorry for showing you how much I cared. I’m not sorry for loving you more than you think you deserved. I’m not sorry for trying to convince you that I’d be there. I’m not sorry for feeling sorry for you.

I’m not.

I don’t give a fuck anymore if you think I’m needy, desperate, foolish and just an idiot. I’m not going to Google, “the Art of Texting” (Yes I did that) and find the best words to text you.

I will text you if I feel like it. I will write about you all I want. I will stop talking to you when I have nothing to say.

But right now, I don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m too tired trying to please you, trying to accommodate to your needs, to put your happiness first before mine, and to accept your bullshit.

I’m too tired trying to be someone I’m not.

So I’m going to be myself now. And you can’t stop me.

Sometimes, giving too much of a fuck can put your happiness in danger. And I’m not just speaking from observation, but from experience.

I don’t care if you think I’m needy, clingy, pushy, aggressive. I don’t care if you think I’m into you more than you do. I don’t care what you think of me when you read my lengthy text, or when I stopped talking to you because I simply had nothing to say.

If you truely stop caring about everything, you perceive the world in a completely different way.

I've had a miserable life for many years, but then again, I don't give a fuck. As I started to care about absolutely nothing, everything changed. People are meaningless. I don't care if you die, and that changes the way I interact with you, most likely I won't because I have no interest in doing so whatsoever. I can have fun, and I can learn things but it never means anything. There is no passion. To me things people care about are pathetic. I see no difference in life now or 500 years ago. There is progress in science and all, but it doesn't change people and never will. Nature and life itself used to amaze me, now it's like I am a spectator of my own deceasing self. I can now find joy in sadness. But joy, is different from what it used to be. And sometimes I wished, I could bore myself to death, or atleast into a sedative coma of blind happiness. Colors, taste, smell have lost their potential of evoking emotions, I only observe. I only eat and drink to keep my body functioning. This is better than depression and endless worries, because it bears one thing. As nothing matters, there is no reason to live, but also no reason to die.

Remember, it's you, writing a story.
It’s you, telling a story. It’s you not giving a fuck about anything but telling that story.

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We all do. No matter how set on our paths and our lives we are, we all want to quit every now and then. Because we’re humans, and like I always say — humans are beautiful, but we suck at remembering it.

That’s not the case. The right path is the one you want to be on. And yeah, you’ll want to quit, but you’ll be just like the rest of us if you go through that. Being an artist, being a creative, being an entrepreneur, it’s about fighting with yourself to keep playing the game when it all feels hopeless.It’s about making one more gamble, and every time, setting your sights on a win, instead of leaving the table.

Just remember 7 things in life!

1. There is no “Easy Button”.

**If there were, everybody would be successful. Anyone who tells you there is is either lying to you or trying to sell you something. Look around, you will see that in action.**

2. Set your bar higher.

Becoming the best you can be takes more work than becoming better than the other guy/gal. Even ‘better’ than them, although I sometimes admit I don’t really know what that means.

3. You are unique.

**Find a small, quiet place and think about who YOU are. Finding your style is more about opening up to what you already have than looking outside for inspiration to copy.**

4. Set goals.

Short term, long term, way long term. Make them just out of reach, worth fighting for, and measurable. Write them down… on paper. Read them every Sunday morning… and every time you are feeling a bit creatively cramped.

5. Love the word YES!

Be open to new things and opportunities. Take chances. Take risks. Be as cautious as necessary, but no more. We do not move up the mountain by being cautious and timid. Embrace the incredible possibilities that confront us nearly every day… and go g… — Be open to new things and opportunities. Take chances. Take risks. Be as cautious as necessary, but no more. We do not move up the mountain by being cautious and timid. Embrace the incredible possibilities that confront us nearly every day… and go get a few.

6. Learn to say NO!

Do not become a negative person, but know when to call time out. Know when you are being taken advantage of or not being appreciated when the appreciation is ALL you are really looking for. Don’t take crap from anyone. Ever. Stand up for your rights… — Do not become a negative person, but know when to call time out. Know when you are being taken advantage of or not being appreciated when the appreciation is ALL you are really looking for. Don’t take crap from anyone. Ever. Stand up for your rights, your work and your vision. Own it.

7. Learn from every mistake.

Critique the hell out of every mistake. Write the critiques down. Yeah, I tell you to write it down for a reason. Studies have shown that what you learn is retained more than typing it into a computer screen. Don’t argue with me, I know stuff. … — Critique the hell out of every mistake. Write the critiques down. Yeah, I tell you to write it down for a reason. Studies have shown that what you learn is retained more than typing it into a computer screen. Don’t argue with me, I know stuff. The next time you shoot, don’t make that mistake again. And don’t worry, there are a ton of mistakes waiting to be made, so critique and adjust.

I didn’t quit, and I won’t quit, because I’m in love with life. I’m in love with it, with breathing in and out,smelling the world when it rains, I’m in love with the work I do, no matter how hard it gets and how good it might feel to walk away, from time to time. I’m in love with helping people.

I want to quit for most of the same reasons that you do. Because we’re all struggling to make it in a world that often doesn’t listen, waiting for the right hand, or the right moment to play the wrong one. We’re all worried we don’t match up to the ideals and heroes we’ve set ourselves, and there’s a thousand things we’d rather fucking be doing.

But I don’t quit. I don’t quit every single day, when I wake up and I want to.I didn’t quit for 5 years, clicking pictures that very few liked, freaking out in panic attacks and deleting them before I would calm down and start all over again.

If this doesn't work out for you, then the song,"Waiting for my real life to begin", by Colin Hay will surely do!

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